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Reverb 10 – Day 12

December 12

Prompt: Body integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?

You would think that from reading these posts of mine, all I did in 2010 was go to Miami in October and move on from people. While slightly accurate, I did do a lot more than just that. This particular moment actually happened at the beginning of 2010. Mind you, I hate cold weather. Like absolutely abhor it. It’s cool and all to be cute in jeans and boots and pea coats, but once it gets past the point where you can be cute, and it’s all about survival in the elements, you’ve pretty much lost me. December to March are the months of the year where I stay in the house a LOT, not because there’s nothing to do, but because it’s too dag on cold outside to do anything fun. Well for some reason at the beginning of the year, my adventurous side kicked in, and after a night in the studio (and when I say night, I mean from like 9:00 PM – 2:30 AM), there were 5 of us that decided we were going to go on an adventure. In the cold. Outside. Like…what? Who was I? I don’t know what came over me, but I was thoroughly excited to go out in the cold ridiculously early in the morning…we all got together, piled in the car, and drove downtown with the first stop being the Lincoln Memorial. We all walked up, chatting and laughing along the way, but as soon as we got to the steps of the Memorial, it was almost like this sense of reverence and respect came across all five of us. Standing there on the top of the steps of the Lincoln, where Martin Luther King, Jr. stood to give his I Have a Dream speech, on the day that we take time as a nation to honor him, was completely surreal. It was an unexpected feeling, but it was almost as if I could feel every struggle that had been gone through in order to get me up on those steps that morning. Looking out along the Reflecting Pool and to the Washington Monument was a feeling I’ll never forget. Though I was there with four other people, it truly felt like I was out there alone. I was totally in tune with the freezing cold air, but the warmth I felt inside at experiencing such a truly commemorative experience beat the cold for a few minutes. Going along through the rest of the day, we stopped and had breakfast at Tryst in Adams Morgan, then continued our trek to the Kennedy Center to watch the rest of the sun rise, and to get in line to get our tickets for the show that evening with India Arie. We got in line, got our tickets, and came back that evening for the show. I had another completely connected moment when she started to sing her song “Good Man.”* For those of you that don’t know, the song is basically about a woman who falls in love with a man who is in the military, they have a child, they live their lives, and he goes off to war, and ends up dying while he is on his tour. The song is basically a conversation between the man and India, and at the end between India and the child. Some of you reading may know, some of you reading may not, but I lost my father when I was 16 to cancer that was pretty much attributed to his service to our country. Needless to say, I felt like I wasn’t even in the room anymore when she started singing. All of me was engrossed in that song, and it was like I felt every single emotion that was supposed to be conveyed through those words. All of the love, the hurt, the sadness, the grief…all of it washed over me at once, but I surprisingly didn’t cry. My friend sitting next to me even leaned over and asked “Are you ok?” at the end of the song…I don’t know if I was or if I wasn’t, but I knew I was completely in tune with every single emotion I had ever felt about losing my father and him not being here anymore. It was one of the stand-out moments of the year for me, and I’m so grateful that I got to experience it with who I got to experience it with…

*Here’s the song for those of you that may not have heard it. Hope you enjoy!