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Reverb 10 – Day 4

December 4
Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

How did I create a sense of wonder…hmmm…I think the way I did that was to learn how to really enjoy life. I took a step back and a look back at the last few years of my life (specifically my college years), and realized that I merely existed on Earth. I had let bad friendships, bad relationships, and a bad sense of self-worth completely wreck my desire to actually live. Moreso the bad sense of self-worth than anything else, but I digress. A lot of my time was spent worrying, or stressing out, or crying, and…enough became enough at a certain point. Once I realized that there was so much life worth living, it was easy for me to open my eyes and to actually begin to live. I have to credit my friends for a lot of the effort they put in to pull me out of the funk that I was in as the year started, but as the year went on, I did what I had to do in order to live my life to the fullest. The endless conversations on GChat, through text messages, over the phone, and in person did so much for me to realize that life is a) too short to waste and b) too fun to spend sad all of the time. I got a new attitude, a new outlook on life, started going new places and meeting new people, and just overall trying to take advantage of all this life has to offer. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that what I am doing now is what life is supposed to be like. There should be more laughs than tears, more nights that I can’t forget with people I don’t want to forget, and way, way more love than hate. For a long time, I knew those things, but they weren’t being put into practice. Now, I make it my business to have more positive days than negative days. Granted, it isn’t always easy, but it makes for a hell of a better life than I used to have. Wonder…an interesting concept to say the least…but I think I’m finally getting the hang of how to create it on a consistent basis.